After getting off the phone with Phoebe, Shadow dropped her body to the ground and began to pray to her spirit animal, the shark because she was born in July. Her spirit animal helps her reign in her fears and face them head-on. She also prays to her spirit animal to overcome any obstacles in her way and to be brave when she does have to make amends even though she doesn’t want to.

“Shark, please help me to be strong and brave to make my amend to Rocky for squirting water at him when he was in his food addiction, I need the strength to do this, Amen,” said Shadow while she lay on the faded oriental rug in her bedroom. Tears began to fall down her furry face. She didn’t like it when she acted like her mother.

Shadow got up off the floor and went in search for Rocky. She knew she had to make this amends now rather than later. She did not want to relapse by drinking iced tea to turn off her emotions.

She found rocky in the kitchen as she expected him to be. He was eating food without chewing it and swallowing it down like there was no tomorrow. At first, she became irritated and angry. She screamed,”Rocky, slow down. You are going to choke yourself. ” Rocky looked up at her briefly with shock and then went back to his eating frenzy. Shadow was so angry she stormed out of the kitchen.

Today, would not be the day she made the amend. She was too angry.

“Shark, help me to change the things I cannot change and the courage to change the things I can, and the knowledge to know the difference,” she mumbled under her breath as she made her way back to her bedroom…